guppy_sandhu: (infirmary)
guppy_sandhu ([personal profile] guppy_sandhu) wrote in [community profile] ways_infirmary2017-04-22 09:58 pm

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There is a quiet corner of the infirmary for Bodhi, but there are folks around if he needs anyone.


[ooc: infirmary/visiting post for Bodhi. Guppy is in and out but if you need him specifically ping me
TRIGGER WARNING possible discussion of suicidality in threads]
idontneedluck: (I believe I can fly)

[personal profile] idontneedluck 2017-04-23 07:05 am (UTC)(link)
Elsewhere in the Bar, Chirrut has found a gym. This is a very good thing, because he is intent on reteaching Baze the finer points of their craft, and it's been forever and a day since Baze has properly sparred with anyone.

"Kick higher! To here, you see? My granny can kick higher, and she died before the Jedi did!" Chirrut mock-grouses, gleeful as he harasses Baze to push himself. He is being watchful, ready to put a halt to the match if Baze looks to be at risk of overextending himself. Until that time he's going to give Baze hell.

And then something in the Force yanks his attention, leaving him standing still for the first time in the last hour.
iprotectyou: Baze giving someone a skeptical look, with his eyes narrowed and his lips thinned (chirrut my dear friend)

[personal profile] iprotectyou 2017-04-23 07:09 am (UTC)(link)
"You never had a granny, street rat," Baze says, thoroughly annoyed and somewhat exhausted, having worn his arms out striking fruitlessly against Chirrut's bo staff with his own.

But apparently it's not all fruitless, because when Chirrut stands still for that one second, Baze slams the end of his staff into his friend's ribs, knocking him to the floor with the force of the blow.

"Chirrut!" Baze says, crouching down to help him up with his free hand. "Are you all right?"
idontneedluck: (What is sight)

[personal profile] idontneedluck 2017-04-23 07:21 am (UTC)(link)
Chirrut coughs, wincing. His ribs ache from the blow, but worse is the ache in his head, and his heart.

"Bodhi." Shy, stuttering, ferociously brave Bodhi, the lost Jedhan boy, the pilot. "Bodhi, he... I've never felt such despair. I... I think he tried to die, again."
iprotectyou: An animated gif of Baze running away from an explosion (only cool guys walk away)

[personal profile] iprotectyou 2017-04-23 07:22 am (UTC)(link)
Bodhi. Their friend, their ally.

The news hits Baze harder than Chirrut's staff ever could. Baze drops his weapon, kneeling in front of Chirrut. "Where is he?"
idontneedluck: (What is sight)

[personal profile] idontneedluck 2017-04-23 07:28 am (UTC)(link)
Chirrut drags himself up to sit properly, ignoring his newly garnered bruise in favor of opening himself as much as he can to the Force's power. He cannot reach for the answer himself, that ability is (so frustratingly) beyond him, but he can hope...

"The Infirmary." He grinds out, his voice tar and gravel from the strain. He wants to go meditate for a week. He wants to sleep for longer.

He forces himself up onto his feet instead.
iprotectyou: Baze looking off to the side, wrinkling his nose (how about no)

[personal profile] iprotectyou 2017-04-23 07:31 am (UTC)(link)
Baze scrambles to his feet, all grace dissolved in his haste. He charges out into the main bar, turning unerringly to the infirmary--which he and Chirrut explored earlier just in case one of them were hurt.

Baze bursts in through the doors, searching the well-lit room for his stubborn, broken pilot. "Bodhi?" he says, spotting a figure curled up in bed. Baze slows his step as he approaches the bedside. "Bodhi, it's me. It's Baze."
imthepilot: (Myrrh)

[personal profile] imthepilot 2017-04-23 07:33 am (UTC)(link)
Bodhi is curled in a ball around a little black furry creature that glares at Baze with amber eyes. Bodhi however, doesn't react. Other than a small shuddering sob.
idontneedluck: (What is sight)

[personal profile] idontneedluck 2017-04-23 07:39 am (UTC)(link)
Chirrut is hot on Baze's heels, an odd reversal of their usual order. He takes a firm handful of the fabric of Baze's jumpsuit, establishing a connection, a tether.

"Oh Bodhi." It's a sigh at the mess the Force has become here.
iprotectyou: Baze giving someone an incredulous look, furrowing his brow (are you serious)

[personal profile] iprotectyou 2017-04-23 07:41 am (UTC)(link)
Baze reaches out hesitantly, and draws back. He reaches out again, laying a firm, gentle hand on Bodhi's shoulder. "What have you done to yourself? Why?"

Baze is baffled. His impression of the bar was of a second life, a second chance to make something of himself. He planned to enjoy every second of his afterlife. To want to die again is beyond him, beyond the pale.
imthepilot: (Drawn - shellshocked)

[personal profile] imthepilot 2017-04-23 07:45 am (UTC)(link)
A sob rattles Bodhi's narrow chest as he opens his eyes. "You're not here. You died." His voice cracks brokenly. "It's not real. None of it."
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idontneedluck: (What is sight)

[personal profile] idontneedluck 2017-04-23 07:51 am (UTC)(link)
"We did." Chirrut agrees, soft and low and gentle, "As you have. This is what comes after, for us." He doesn't understand it, he's pretty sure there wasn't a single text in the entire Temple archive that listed a cantina as an option for the afterlife, but he isn't going to complain.
iprotectyou: Baze aiming a bazooka cannon with a red tint (welcome to the gun show)

[personal profile] iprotectyou 2017-04-23 07:54 am (UTC)(link)
"Bodhi!" Baze snaps, shaking his shoulder. He's trying to be gentle, but he's growing incensed. "We are real. We're here. Wake up!"

He clenches his teeth. "How could you do it?"
imthepilot: (eyes opening slower)

[personal profile] imthepilot 2017-04-23 07:58 am (UTC)(link)
"We died. On the beach. On Scarf. But I'm alone. Alone for months." He sobs again, shaking. "But... he died. On Eadu. Why? Why would I be here. And not him."

Myrrh gives Baze a sharp look, amber eyes narrowing.
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stilljustandrew: (woe!)

[personal profile] stilljustandrew 2017-04-25 12:27 am (UTC)(link)
How much time has passed? There's no telling.

But at some point, when Bodhi wakes -- from a doze, or from a deeper sleep -- there's a figure standing a few yards from his bed: hands deep in the pockets of his jacket, shoulders slumped, studying him with a look of helpless unhappiness.
imthepilot: (Drowning - sleep)

[personal profile] imthepilot 2017-04-25 12:30 am (UTC)(link)
Myrrh watches Andrew, yawning at him pointedly before headbutting Bodhi.

Bodhi sniffs and focuses, noticing Andrew. He frowns, burying his face in the pillows in shame.
stilljustandrew: (rueful)

[personal profile] stilljustandrew 2017-04-25 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
"H-hey," says Andrew, trying hard to smile. "You awake?"
imthepilot: (Default)

[personal profile] imthepilot 2017-04-25 12:35 am (UTC)(link)
He nods, pulling the blanket tighter around himself.
stilljustandrew: (look aside)

[personal profile] stilljustandrew 2017-04-25 12:40 am (UTC)(link)
"Are you ... feeling any better? God," he mutters, interrupting himself, and then starts over. "Sorry, I'm sorry, stupid question. I meant ..."

Except it's hard to say what he did mean, given the impossibility of asking Bodhi how he's doing.
imthepilot: (Drawn - rubbing eyes)

[personal profile] imthepilot 2017-04-25 12:43 am (UTC)(link)
"I don't know." He admits softly.
stilljustandrew: (so very blue)

[personal profile] stilljustandrew 2017-04-25 12:46 am (UTC)(link)
"Oh."

Andrew swallows.

"I'm sorry," he says again, low. "I should have ... I promised I'd check on you, and I was going to, I just ... I didn't want to bother you."
imthepilot: (Drawn - Drowning)

[personal profile] imthepilot 2017-04-25 12:47 am (UTC)(link)
"It's not your fault. Something happened. I couldn't-" his voice breaks.
stilljustandrew: (so very blue)

[personal profile] stilljustandrew 2017-04-25 12:49 am (UTC)(link)
"What --"

He makes an aborted movement, settles the hand that wanted to reach out deeper in its pocket.

"What happened?"
imthepilot: (Default)

[personal profile] imthepilot 2017-04-25 12:51 am (UTC)(link)
"Galen was here. Only it wasn't him. It was a lie." He curls up tightly, fighting a sob.
stilljustandrew: (oh no)

[personal profile] stilljustandrew 2017-04-25 12:53 am (UTC)(link)
"It wasn't --?"

Two thoughts immediately come to mind; neither of them is good.

(Not that there's ever likely to be a good reason for something to impersonate your dead friend.)

"What ... who was it?"
imthepilot: (Default)

[personal profile] imthepilot 2017-04-25 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
"Dr Lecter. There was a sickness that made him think-" he sobs again, unable to bear the cruelty of it.

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