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::Lives, here:: Rachel noted quietly, making it through the infirmary door in heartbeats. There's flae in her, in her eyes, in her soul,pure and true...

But so much gentler by force of will than whatrages in his nightmares.

And his eyes snap to her.

"::What?::"

Still that doiubling, but now afraid, confused... hopeful?

She won't lie, can't lie, swore never to to him. So her words are simply repeated ::Lives. Here::

She's used to doubling. Comes with the territory.

"::How? I saw/felt/thought her dead?::"

Eyes look up at her, clinging to shreads of sanity. Of hope. Of flame.

::Milliways is an exception to many things. She arrived here on that very brink of death and was healed in body. en you are both strong enough, the rest may heal::

Flame is easy to hold for some.

He stares at her and he throws back his head and he cries aloud.

And Somewhere else (http://bindsthedragon.livejournal.com/707.html), there is an answer.

When he looks at her again, there are tears in his eyes...

"She is alive..."

She simply nods, crossing her arms and leaning on the wall near his bed. She has no need for "I told you so".

"Neither of you press yourselves, you're still healing"

He nods, but his eyes are on the door, which shrugs open to admit a breathing hard Companion, whose eyes whirl almost insanely as she looks and looks and looks. An Lavan looks as well and tears are in his eyes, as is madness.

::How... I thought you were dead?::

Dead, dead, dead, flame, loss, pain, loss, kalira?

She looks and loosk her fill and shakes her mane.

::I am here, I am alive and you are alive and ... why is the bond so jagged... before I could not feel it and yet? What?::

Their bond, hideen by mental scar tissue, by pain, by delusion, brojken yet not broken, writhes in their minds like a whip and they both scream.

And there is power, pooring like a balm without end. A sweet soothing. She has reserves to spare and more now...it cost her nothing to offer calm.

::Wounded minds and souls cannot hold onto what they usaully can:: she chided gently ::Just like broken fingers cannot grip a sword or knife. It takes time::

Lavan shudders.

::Pain... the link is... torn?::

He peers out through tears of pain and reaches a hand to Kalira.

::I am sorry my lady for ever not knowing, not seeing you::

And still, his mind roils, and his heart rebels. She is dead! isnt she?

Kalira ia almost tot eh ground but lifts her nose to touch his hand, wanting the contact as much as he.

::I am here... I am here::

her own mind seems to shudder, lashes of pain rippling arouind her mind.

::You are a healer? A mindspeaker?::

She speaks it then to Rachel, fighting through pain.

::Of a sort::

Just as she can calm, so too can she steal pain, and swallow it as her own. Allow them numbness for now rather than grating glass.

Lavan's eyes open slightly with the absence of pain. He blinks at Rachel, then at Kalira.

::How... how are you alive?::

His mental voice is strained.

::I was swept away by the fire, by the Dragon. When I awoke, I was here and being healed... there are other Companions and Chosen here.::

She sends it as a soothing balm.

Rachel knows many things...

One of which is when to just be a quiet observer and pain killer. So, that she is.

::I thought you were dead, and I couldnt feel you, and the place where the boind was hurt, badly... and everything is off, not right, not correct, not straight and I dont know why and...::

Chaos roils in hbis mind again, like fire below the surface.

She flinches but noses his hand again.

::I am alive. I thought you dead as well, and yes, it hurts, but we are together, we can fix it, make it right again, make it us again. Just hold on, Lavan. We are together... and now awe are together, we will not be seperated.::

Death life, strange break nbroken torn light dark fire weird what am I what are you why why why why why?

this cannot be!

"Impossible!"

And his mind flees back into chaos.

::Lavan!!::

She cries it out in anguish as he flees even her and sinks down on the ground.

Rachel can follow where few can ever dare.

She sends strength to Kalira, but plunges after Lavan, building the room about them as they fall.

His mind actively resists now, raging fire and pain and denial and fear and chaos swirling everywhere.

No no no no NO! Cant be real must be fake, lies, not true, cant be true, all lies and pain and false and mirrors and smoke and painnnnnn!

Pain lances through it all, mental, and emotional, and physical even.

And Kalira just shivers, in the natrure of her kind, as her mind feels the pain and darkness again.

Nothing goes right...

Rachel? Doesn't put up with such denial, in effect, changing the scenery. They're in the quiet room once more, Rachel leaning against the shutters on the window.

When Lavan tires of beating his head and hands on the ground and screaming? She'll still be there. With a shattered crystal globe in her hands.

He looks around, eyes wide. His mind shivers.

This cant be... real?

::What is this?::

and

::Who are you?::

Hs mind shivers as it teeters somewhere on an edge of nothing and chaos.

Kalira shivers and watches, alone and in the Infirmary, unsure what to do.

::This is as real as I can make it, and trust me, it's real enough for a bomb blast:: she sighed, eyeing the shining slivers.

::I'm Rachel:: a statement she can make as many times as necessary.

::Why are you here?::

Something like calmness settles over him.

Kalira, from ouside, from the Infirmary, lends strength, a gentle touch, and waits.

::Holding people and things together is part of what I do. I'm here because you need someone to be, and I can be here without hurting you::

::I dont understand. What happened?::

He looks around, shifting slightly. He is brokena dn yet, his core, for the first time in a long time, feels awake, alive.

And Kalira feels... a slight echo, something not like what was, but like what might eventually be, and her head lifts and something like hope stirs.

She offered him the shattered crystal globe, some slivers still bearing light and life...some inching together. ::You shattered. You've been healing, slowly::

She doesn't have to tell him how or why. He knows.

He takes it.

::Is this me?::

At his touch, his care, some of the edges seal slightly, a small quickening, but there nonetheless.

He looks at her.

::What do I do?::

That which was broken isnt whole, isnt even truly remade...

The she gasps a she realizes... it was never unmade. The link has always been there, hidden, lost, but... still there... She blinks, shocked beyond herself.

How could she have missed it?

Much can be buried and hidden in fear and blood. In glass shards and darkness. In smoke.

::You work on it:: she stated, calm and simple.

::It is you, and everything you can be/will be. The pieces are all there, and you know where they go. It will simply take time::

he shivers and somehow knows, and with that knowing, another small piece slots into place.

he breathes slowly and nods.

::Can you show me how to maintain this space, this place... so I can do this?::

He looks up at her.

::I am grateful beyind words, but... everyone has other allegiances and tasks, and I would not ask you to hold me thus forever...::

He shivers, but stands fast, even as he feels the very fsaintest of touches.

Kalira feels a joy untangle within her, a featherlight, almost real bond, not complete anymore, but there...

She cries, not real tears, but she cries anyway, in joy as love rolls down a linkg, small, but there... gloriously there!

::I can teach you both to hold it, as it takes a great deal, and perhaps you're Lady is a better anchor, while you build better walls...:: she noted, her words echoing to both affected minds.

She doesn't question his desire, she knows somethings must be done without...crutches.

He nods and squares his shoulders and outside the mind, inside the mind, connected and yet not fully yet, Kalira echoes the movement.

::Show us... please.::

he smiles faintly.

::The time has come to start rebuilding. My rest is over.::

And Kalira reared just a bit, joy flickering.

Her chosen was alive!