Visiting post for Autor

[guppy_sandhu]

Because someone took a twenty foot tumble off a flying carpet, Autor has been in overnight for head injury observation.

Feel free to come pester him when he wakes up. Or draw on his face while he sleeps, whatever works.

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[herr_bookman]

Autor blushes, and represses the urge to bury himself under the covers. He can't remember the last time someone kissed him that wasn't Rae or his mother, or even Jay--but Jay was an entirely different circumstance and not something the boy should be thinking on at all, ever.

He realizes--belatedly--that he gets kissed pretty frequently, or has since he started coming here.

He swallows. It was just a peck. And he is one of her boys. He smiles a bit, accepting that. But then he realizes that he forgot to ask her a question. "Oh, Bonnie, wait!"

[is_the_motion]

"Hm?" Bonnie turns around. "What's up?"

[herr_bookman]

And now that he has her attention, his blush deepens, as what he'd planned to ask is a bit sensitive, and he's not sure if he should ask her--but now he's talking anyway, the words coming in a rush.

"So this question might be abrupt--of course it will be--but I've been researching a topic lately that you might some opinions on and certainly have some experience with," Autor says, fisting his good hand in the blankets near his knee. "And I'd like to trust your experience because I trust you and I hope that you're not affronted when I ask."

He draws back, a pale and vulnerable boy, but eager to listen. "So," he says quietly, "what do you think love is?"

[is_the_motion]

Bonnie comes and sits back next to him, giving him the time the question deserves in thought.

"Love is wantin' someone ter be with you every day, fer ever more." she says. "When they're sick, old, actin' like an ass... It's not expectin' them ter change. It's feelin' comfortable with 'em."

She hesitates, then adds.

"Love is climate, not weather. If it's meant ter be, it don't need ter be fast."

[herr_bookman]

Autor listens, absorbing her words like a sponge. He turns her definition over and over in his head, picking apart each word.

And then he gets to the last bit, and he smiles, bright and boyish. 'Take it slow' makes more sense to him than Teja's urgency, simply because of who Miss Kuriyama is.

"So, accepting who a person is, warts and all, and wanting to be around that person," Autor says shyly. He clasps her hand, squeezing her fingers. "And not rushing. I like that. Comfortable sounds really nice. And hopefully you can make the other person more comfortable, too?"

[is_the_motion]

Bonnie nods.

"Well you cain't make anyone love you." she says. "If they like you, that can grow into love. But if a lady don't want you pursuin' her, you got to respect that, 'cos you'll never make someone love you by bein' a pain in the ass.

But bein' able ter sit with them, and just enjoy dinner, or do somethin' ordinary, that's real important. You don't want ter be feelin' all blushy and embarrassed forever."

[herr_bookman]

Autor nods rapidly. "And I wouldn't want to overwhelm Mis--um, someone," the boy says, ducking. He glances up, still shy. "You're right. It's better to be friends first, because if you're not... passionate about each other anymore, what else do you have."

[is_the_motion]

"You got to remember, love and sex, they're not the same thing." Bonnie says. "You can have sex without love, and that's fine. You can have love without sex, that's fine too. Lot of people in love enjoy sex, but there's got ter be more."

[herr_bookman]

He does blush at that, and rests a hand on his burning cheek. "That's... something that's new to me. And hard to accept. But I can see how it would work, theoretically. I wasn't even thinking of, um, that aspect of it."

He wonders if he'll ever start thinking on it--or thinking on it without shame, anyway, and for himself. The boy clears his throat. "T-Thank you, Bonnie. Your answers make sense to me."

[is_the_motion]

"Yer welcome."

Bonnie nods. "One day you may want ter think about sex. But you don't need to rush that if you ain't ready."

[herr_bookman]

Autor smiles a little. "When I do, I'll have a decent knowledge of contraceptives, also thanks to you."

[is_the_motion]

"You know you can ask me anything, right?"

[herr_bookman]

Autor brightens a little at that, squeezing her fingers again. "Yup! That's why I asked you this. Thank you, Bonnie. Thank you so much."

[is_the_motion]

She smiles a little.

"Any time. Want me to stay fer a bit or let you get some sleep?"

[herr_bookman]

"I think I'll be all right, now," Autor says, inclining his head. "I might sleep, or head out, provided I can be discharged. Please take care of yourself, and I hope to catch you after I've mended."

[is_the_motion]

"Will do, let me know if you need me. And good luck with yer lady."

Now she leaves him to it, giving him a wink.